On You

You seem to be so focused
On all the hurt you feel
Forgetting about the anguish
That I've had to endure
Several years of my existence
Wasted
On hope that you'd change
And be who I need you to be
But no
You were complacent
Cool with breaking me
Into pieces that you were too busy to notice
Crumbling to the ground
Exhausted and drained
Feeling worthless and confused
Drowning in pain
And the one meant to save me was you

Instead you were my destroyer
Ripping me to shreds
Leaving me hanging by threads
Pining for the cold affection you give
And that's no way to live
With you stomping on my heart
Tearing me apart
Slowly before your eyes, I died
And you never even tried, to help my tears dry
You just lied
Lurking in the shadows pretending to care
When I needed you, you were never really there
Were you?
Of course not

Luckily I can handle things on my own
Accustom to being alone
But the downside of leaving me to my own devices
Is that I no longer crave your hand to hold
Now suddenly you want a free pass
To just forget about the past
To make it easier on you
But it doesn't work that way
I love you still
And I always will
But I can't forget the heartache I felt
And instead of lessens learned
You don't think trust should be earned
News flash
Mistreatment is no longer an option
But to be quite honest
I will not fall victim to another promise
Not this time