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Facing Reality
I want to pretend just a little longer
That I don't feel distant
And that we are closer than ever
I want to dream for a few more nights
That I'm still in love
And that I've never fallen out of it
I want to spend all my time smiling
At the things you have done
Not crying at what you didn't
And I want to act like it feels good being yours
Even better with you being mine
Meant to be for all of time
But I know in the end I am only lying
The truth is that I am dying
Because you killed me long ago
And there is no going back now, been trying
But feelings evaporated into the past
So I've no choice but to leave them behind
I'm sorry if it hurts you or you don't understand
I know you've been doing your part
Your version of trying was a start
But it's not enough to mend the pieces of me
I always feel broken in your arms
Even when you think you're holding me together
Your kiss does not consume me anymore
Your touch does not ignite a flame of passion
And thoughts of you leave me sad most days
I used to think 'too little too late' was just a saying
But the meaning has been burned into my soul
A lesson I'm sure not to forget
I think I fought for us far too long
Devoted all energy to fighting for you
Forgot that I needed fighting for too
Now, I need to get up and fight for me
And correct this messed up state I'm in
So please, just let me go
I want to move on to other experiences
But I can't continue forward to new things
If you keep holding me back
There's no where left to go from here
I've been taught all that I can learn
And I'm grateful for what you've shown me
It feels good to know that I did all I could
But now that I have let go of the anger
I've found there's nothing left to hold onto
You deserve someone who is happy to make you happy
Who can reciprocate your feelings
And is madly in love with you
I was that girl at one time
But now I know I am not
I'm reminded when I try to remember how it felt
I wanted to be her again
So for a little longer I had to pretend
But now I must find a way to face what is real
That I don't feel distant
And that we are closer than ever
I want to dream for a few more nights
That I'm still in love
And that I've never fallen out of it
I want to spend all my time smiling
At the things you have done
Not crying at what you didn't
And I want to act like it feels good being yours
Even better with you being mine
Meant to be for all of time
But I know in the end I am only lying
The truth is that I am dying
Because you killed me long ago
And there is no going back now, been trying
But feelings evaporated into the past
So I've no choice but to leave them behind
I'm sorry if it hurts you or you don't understand
I know you've been doing your part
Your version of trying was a start
But it's not enough to mend the pieces of me
I always feel broken in your arms
Even when you think you're holding me together
Your kiss does not consume me anymore
Your touch does not ignite a flame of passion
And thoughts of you leave me sad most days
I used to think 'too little too late' was just a saying
But the meaning has been burned into my soul
A lesson I'm sure not to forget
I think I fought for us far too long
Devoted all energy to fighting for you
Forgot that I needed fighting for too
Now, I need to get up and fight for me
And correct this messed up state I'm in
So please, just let me go
I want to move on to other experiences
But I can't continue forward to new things
If you keep holding me back
There's no where left to go from here
I've been taught all that I can learn
And I'm grateful for what you've shown me
It feels good to know that I did all I could
But now that I have let go of the anger
I've found there's nothing left to hold onto
You deserve someone who is happy to make you happy
Who can reciprocate your feelings
And is madly in love with you
I was that girl at one time
But now I know I am not
I'm reminded when I try to remember how it felt
I wanted to be her again
So for a little longer I had to pretend
But now I must find a way to face what is real
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