that place between places

This place of perfection
has never been a good place
between us

This place of perfection
is always the time where you leave me
without ever bothering to say goodbye
and I sit here between the heartbeats of silence
wondering if you’ve run again
leaving me with the one sided conversation
of “what have I done this time?”
if anything at all

I shouldn’t need to tell you
there are months where I feel
I am playing hide and seek
with your love
and no matter what we say
I can’t help but believe
that I’ve always needed you more

So don’t ask me to pretend
like I don’t give a fuck that you’re going
don’t ask me to give a fuck that you’ve gone
again
leaving me as always
with more questions than answers
that I’ve learnt not to chase

This place of perfection
has never been a good place between us
and I don’t hate you for it
I just hate that you feel
the need to leave
when things are this free

© Indie Adams 2014
15th October 2014