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Shattered

Shattered:

Please; I am shattered, I just want to pick up the pieces of me left, if there is anything
I just want to stop wondering, if you are real or just words; do you love me
I just want to be happy and free; I don�t want to wait on you, every damn day
I just want to be me; the sex feign, natural magic queen, curious girl I always been

Shattered! Into a million pieces, I can�t do this
Its killing me! It�s too deep, it is hurting me
I love you! But I chose not to, I do not want to
I am shattered! It�s too deep it is torturing me

I am covering my eyes
I am blocking my ears
I do not want to see
I am pretending not to hear

All those words; how do I no they are true? I want to believe you, I don�t: I don�t
He said them to me to; did you practice them at the school you went to?
I love you! I love you! But this is killing me, I just cannot do it; I can�t do this
I feel like a yoyo; I am on a string, always waiting for you� waiting for you

I am not the girl who waits, I make the rules as I go, I say what is what with me
I do not hurt; I do not wonder, I do not fear, I am not scared: all these things in me
I fell once, almost twice; for the same thing- I am a fool, I played the fool� I was a fool
You�re beautiful it is true; damn what I would love to do to you, the sex how I wanted to

I am shattered! a million pieces I had broken into
I knew it, I knew, I am too needed for a man like you
You and me; we have different points of view
I need your time; I need you� he opened my eyes

He said the same things you say; I almost fell for him� but I had chosen you
It�s a good thing to, or I wouldn�t know what to do; now I do� I do
I am not running; I am not hiding- I am just saying� I love you
The rest is in your hands; and I don�t hurt so bad anymore, not like I use to

I use to be so lost and confused; now I am confident and sure of how this one ends
I know you do to; I know you do
I don�t choose him; he would bore me in time, I am sure
You�re the only one who really touched me; you know where

I am blocking my eyes
I am covering my ears
I am pretending not to see
I do not want to hear

Please! I am shattered; I just want to pick up the pieces of me left� If there is anything
I just want to stop wondering if you are real, or just words; do you love me
I just want to be happy and free; I don�t want to wait on you every damn day
I just want to be me; the sex feign, natural magic queen, curious girl I always been

I am blocking my eyes
I am covering my ears
I am pretending not to see
I do not want to hear

Lori