road signs to an affair

You say follow
but I won’t follow
I can’t…
won’t take that road
to its end destination

The ghosts in my chemistry
knock about and start a war
that no one else can see
the past and future unravel
to become right now
this is where it changes
this is where it stays the same
this is where mistakes are made
and patterns are broken

This is where I find out
who and what I really am

You say follow
but I fall behind
because I can’t
won’t be the person
that does this all again
and expects to make it out
the other side
unbroken by weakness
in the guise of love
(which isn’t what this is)

© Indie Adams 2014