What I Miss The Most

Walking in the door to our home, shelter, and place.  Seeing your smile, knowing the love you have for me, feeling how deep that love is, snuggled in your warm embrace!

Your manly giggle to the dumbest commercials I have seen, now I find myself doing the same thing when they pop up on the TV.  

Sharing the details of our day, out on the porch, sharing kisses, expressing our love, once brightly burning, now all that's left is a slight simmer in the ashes of that torch.

Hearing my kids interact with you, seeing them smile at your goofy jokes, asking us all kinds of questions about, your intentions and our future, watching the look on your face that GRIN not knowing how to answer, to me you are one of God's most perfect creations.

Playing Farm Heros on our phones, a friendly rivalry a test of wills, a level to gain, cuss words muttered when we lose, occasional huffs and groans as we ask for lives and start again.

Or the time I was going out, you couldn't keep your hands off once I was ready to leave, the way you looked at me, kissed me, and put your hands on me, made it hard for me to breath, I could feel how bad you wanted me, it was a passion that burned so hot I could almost taste it, a feeling so amazing, if only I could make you feel that way again and not waste it.

Playing card games on the floor, just the two of us enjoying our life, nothing else mattered no one else existed in our little world.  I had so much fun that night I was sad to see it end, that happiness just felt right.

Having your daughter sit in my lap, jumping on me in the morning or after a small snooze or nap. Watching your son, how he walk, talks, and acts, realizing how much he is just like you, even you can't deny this is true, fact.

Believe it or not I even miss your cute little fits, pouting and stomping away when we weren't on the same page and didn't agree oh what I would give now to see that look when u walk away and sit.

I even miss your nasty bodily functions, and the cute looks we shared, as you apologized and let out another, see now that's just amazing to me as I type it, I can't believe I actually miss those smelly imperfections!

Cuddling up next to you in our bed, bodies tangled up close, touching skin to skin, warm and cozy, a perfect fit.  Feeling your heart beat against my back, hearing you breathe, soothing to me, as you slept, memorizing that feeling, letting myself get lost in our closeness and loving it.

Kissing you now that I could have done for hours, except my body's need for you always took over, and the feeling of you slipping inside me is indescribable, it is something, one rarely finds in a lover,
A connection or even maybe more, a sensation that I have never felt with anyone before.

There are lots of things in my life that I regret and wish I could change, but my time with you will never be one that I add to my list or rearrange.  You will be in my heart, and I will always have love for you, just as I have for the past 13 years or maybe more.

Maybe we will be able to get past all of our stress and struggles, start over rekindle that passion that we seemed to have misplaced, get back to what really matters our happiness and love for each other, that we once wore proudly on our faces standing next to each other.

If it ends up that I have to let you go, please  remember you will always be my friend and the things I wrote about in this poem are honest and true and you will be the one that stole my heart so quickly.  The one that I will always miss the most is you!