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the fight
I want to reach out
but there is no one there
that I trust enough
to burden with these thoughts
of darkness
I am drowning in myself
and there is no lifeboat
to save me
I am not sure if it's pride
or the lingering belief
that I am not worth saving
that keeps me from screaming out
for the life line I need
Today, I have forgotten how to swim
and all I can hope for
is the passing of this storm
before the darkness takes make under
and I lose the strength
to fight its depths
(C) Indie Adams 2014
but there is no one there
that I trust enough
to burden with these thoughts
of darkness
I am drowning in myself
and there is no lifeboat
to save me
I am not sure if it's pride
or the lingering belief
that I am not worth saving
that keeps me from screaming out
for the life line I need
Today, I have forgotten how to swim
and all I can hope for
is the passing of this storm
before the darkness takes make under
and I lose the strength
to fight its depths
(C) Indie Adams 2014
Published 22nd Sep 2014
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22nd Sep 2014 10:31am
It's frightening when we can't see the shoreline and there no gulls to signal land ... sometimes it does feel easier to give up ...
Thank you for sharing ...
Thank you for sharing ...
22nd Sep 2014 10:54am
It is indeed a frightening place to be. Thanks for reading and leaving your thoughts :)
22nd Sep 2014 11:06am
Having lived through many of these storms I can relate to this. Somehow we always get through it even though we never learn how to swim. I guess poetry, art and music becomes a life vest for those of us who can't swim....
"I am not sure if it's pride
or the lingering belief
that I am not worth saving"
-favorite lines, excellent poem.
"I am not sure if it's pride
or the lingering belief
that I am not worth saving"
-favorite lines, excellent poem.
25th Sep 2014 1:13am
Art, in its way, is a savior in it's own right :) Thank you for stopping by and leaving your lovely comment, edead. It's much appreciated. I can relate.
22nd Sep 2014 3:00pm
I think we hold pain and fears inside not because there is nobody we can trust with our secrets,but more so due to the human element of pride and the constant self devaluating doubts that indeed we are not good enough as you have illustrated in the third verse!
Be strong dear,this too shall pass.And remember,the storm may drown or dump you deep see but it is lightning that kills!You still stand a chance!
Kisses Miss I.
Be strong dear,this too shall pass.And remember,the storm may drown or dump you deep see but it is lightning that kills!You still stand a chance!
Kisses Miss I.
25th Sep 2014 1:16am
Pride and fear definitely are major factors in self-destructive silences. Few things are actually as bad at they seem, but often due to depression, anxiety, and a variety of other factors, they can come across as insurmountable. Thank you for stopping by and leaving your thoughts Lady P, :) It's much appreciated.
22nd Sep 2014 3:08pm
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i'm thinking the desire to reach out is progress. that effort in itself is success, the core of it.
the outcomes? that's a different issue altogether, a different measuring separate from one's core. cleanse the core, keep reaching, i'm thinking everything else naturally falls into place. but it begins with being satisfied at the start. who begins a race consciously knowing they have a pebble in their shoe?
limp or change
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i'm thinking the desire to reach out is progress. that effort in itself is success, the core of it.
the outcomes? that's a different issue altogether, a different measuring separate from one's core. cleanse the core, keep reaching, i'm thinking everything else naturally falls into place. but it begins with being satisfied at the start. who begins a race consciously knowing they have a pebble in their shoe?
limp or change
23rd Sep 2014 5:37am
