We Get Stronger

I lied to you for the first time today
I told you "yes" when you asked if all is okay
I'm sorry I did it but I had my reasons
Some things are better left as secrets
I had no place to wonder the things I was
Only one topic I wanted to discuss
But I knew it was better to divert my attention
Even if at the expense of this connection
Now I feel guilt for breaking trends set
I can't figure out where my head went
In the moment decision I wanted the best
I saw no benefit if I confessed
But we built this foundation on openness
And now I feel that I've broken it
Will it do more harm with you knowing?
Or should I stick to not exposing?
How do you tell someone you were concerned
When it's up to them what they want you to learn
Seems better to me to let it pass
But should you let dishonesty  pave that path?
I can justify my actions
And suppress emotional reactions
It'll only interfere if I let it
Until this moment I didn't regret it
But I had to reflect and think too much
God damn me and how I am with that stuff
I've only ruined this thing in my own mind
You'd never know about it otherwise
And so I'm thinking I shouldn't stress
And just allow things to progress
But is this a natural course of events
When the truth wasn't present?
Can I live with this little mark
Knowing I've kept you in the dark?
Or will it come out at a later date?
Still isn't it better that I wait?

Oh the joys of a guilty conscience
I went with the emotional option
I told you why and how I lied
You gave me choice to keep reasons inside
But I figured I might as well go for it all
Whether we rise or whether we fall
It was even harder than I imagined
And I regretted letting this happen
I knew it wasn't right to say
But my heart had to get in the way
The idea of breaking this was too much to bear
And if honesty is to be mutual it isn't fair
Little did I know your side was just as bad
You didn't really give me all that you could have
Although I understood, it seemed I shouldn't have felt guilt
For I wasn't the only one to fracture what we'd built
And then you fell to pieces feeling pain on my behalf
Frustrated with yourself because of what you never meant to lack
But now you know I'll help you when you can't figure things out
We will keep on moving forward of this I have no doubt
Together here we stand on stable mutual ground
No need to be uncertain, I'm glad for what we've found
As we keep laying foundations down this gets stronger day by day
I love our communication... let's keep going on this way