I'm No Protector

I don't know how to protect you
Because I'm only strong in certain aspects
And I know when I'm weak
I'm nothing but a disastrous mess
I don't know how to prevent every bad outcome
But I know that I try to do good
I'm not sure what it counts for when all that I have
Is shelter and warmth for you to come to
But there are well-equipped fighters out there
And my fighting skills are limited
Sure I'll go for it as hard as I can
But what if sometimes it isn't enough?
And what if sometimes you just can't understand
That I need a break and have had a little too much
What if I'm at my worst when you need my best
And you discover I'm not as capable as you thought
I don't expect to wash the clouds away
The rain will fall whether we like it or not
I just wish I had ingredients
To make light out of each drop
Because I want to revitalize your soul
And bring you back to health
Figure out a foolproof method
To help you as well as myself
I'm usually quite the multitasker
So you'd think I could do it but no
Emotions consume me and nothing else matters
Gotta let it flow to let it go

So when unplanned events hit
And throw me into dark water
I'm left a fraction of what you expect
Have nothing good left to offer
And I fear it could divide us
In spite of the good times
Even when you understand the variables
It doesn't really ease my mind
Because I know there must be a part of you
Who hates my flaws in secret
Who wonders why I can't do as I should
And make you whole while I'm in pieces
My every good intention
Must have created belief of perfection
Unintentional deception
I gave the wrong impression
You thought I'd always be connected
That no matter what I'd look in depth and
See that you're profoundly affected
You believed I'd always get it
Because even through the misconceptions
I can read most of your expressions
But sometimes I get caught in stress webs
And I have my own life events, then
It leaves you feeling I don't care
And probably that you're living a lie
So maybe you should seek comfort elsewhere
From someone who can provide it more adequately than I