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Pablo the countdown

Pablo the countdown:

I was so young, when we met
It was a convenience, not a love

I wanted children
You could give me them

You were alone
And not like the others

You held darkness
And I soothed your demons

You got comfortable
To comfortable

You never once
Treated me like a wife

You harbored feelings
Things never, felt quite right

You were never
What I needed and now

I just want to live my life

I care about you, it is true

20 years with another person
Does affect parts of your soul

I do not love you
The way you want me to

Had you tried then
Like you are now, maybe
I would have tried to, with you

Now, I do not want to
I don�t even want to pursue a future, with you
I do not see another year, of doing the same routine
We always do
I am bored, with this life
We made a ritual, to line up rules

I never was made for this
I was never made for you

Truth be said, if I did not have my kids
I would have left, a long time ago
And you know it is true

I cannot say I am
Madly, deeply, in passionate love, with you
I never have been

I am sorry
If you want to stay with me
But Pablo
I cannot stay with you

The kids see it
Why can�t you
I would rather die
Than remain
Another year with you

Death
She called me, so many times
You never cared
You were never there
You are never there

You�re not the man, I need
I am tired of being your mommy, dream
Please! Understand?
I ache, to be free

You never asked me
How my heart feels
Do you care about the answer?

You never considered
How I cried
When my tubes were tied

You never once held me
When I was too weak
To even consider living

No, it was always
Always, my children
Who came to me?
And whipped my eyes clean

And you now wonder why
I do not love you

You never once
Gave me a reason to

Lori