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Paranoid
bi-polar mania eclipsed
the sun I felt shining
a blood moon shone brighter
feeling my private life here
had been compromised
by prying eyes
I retreated paranoia getting hold
grabbing me by the throat
causing my heart to pound
my stomach to convulse
I wanted to say a public goodbye
but the beast that had me in it's stranglehold
said no the watchers will be printing your private scribes
then showing them to loved ones
I couldn't have this so I faded quietly in to the mist
leaving my heart heavy for the one's I've come to cherish
I just wanted to say I love you all
for being my unconditional family
the sun I felt shining
a blood moon shone brighter
feeling my private life here
had been compromised
by prying eyes
I retreated paranoia getting hold
grabbing me by the throat
causing my heart to pound
my stomach to convulse
I wanted to say a public goodbye
but the beast that had me in it's stranglehold
said no the watchers will be printing your private scribes
then showing them to loved ones
I couldn't have this so I faded quietly in to the mist
leaving my heart heavy for the one's I've come to cherish
I just wanted to say I love you all
for being my unconditional family
Published 25th Aug 2014
| Edited 28th Oct 2014
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25th Aug 2014 9:50pm
25th Aug 2014 9:51pm
Beautiful Brenda Don't leave me!!!!!
You are so well Loved here sweets!!
I will miss you deeply!!
Love you
Sir Lancelott
glad you're back!!
You are so well Loved here sweets!!
I will miss you deeply!!
Love you
Sir Lancelott
glad you're back!!
25th Aug 2014 11:29pm
25th Aug 2014 11:30pm
25th Aug 2014 11:45pm
I am sooo glad to see you back dear friend!! Your voice has been missed terribly much!! with love and respect..xoxo domore
25th Aug 2014 11:59pm
26th Aug 2014 00:12am
I am glad to see you back and I too was sad you had left! Welcome back where you belong!
Broomie Xoxoxox
Broomie Xoxoxox
Anonymous
- Edited 9th Nov 2018 2:45pm
26th Aug 2014 1:05am
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Anonymous
26th Aug 2014 2:03am
Sweet Crim......fully understand this. We've missed you and great to see you again. Luv, hugs and prayers sent your way. Xo :)
26th Aug 2014 5:55am
you've gone thru some troubled times, but managed to escape the eclipse. goodbyes are always so full of tears & regret.
home is where the heart is, Crim...
home is where the heart is, Crim...
Anonymous
26th Aug 2014 11:38am
Glad to see you back, Crim
I have actually been there many times, felt the same way and shut it all down! I can relate and I'm not bipolar..my brain injury causes severe imbalance and impulse control and it isn't easy to live with. Without cannabis, I'd still be locked up-maybe for life..or dead. Anyway, this is powerful with excellent insight and self awareness. Nice ink
Love and light :)
Miki
I have actually been there many times, felt the same way and shut it all down! I can relate and I'm not bipolar..my brain injury causes severe imbalance and impulse control and it isn't easy to live with. Without cannabis, I'd still be locked up-maybe for life..or dead. Anyway, this is powerful with excellent insight and self awareness. Nice ink
Love and light :)
Miki
26th Aug 2014 11:52am
26th Aug 2014 4:25pm
all i'm gonna say is, i missed the fuck out of you & i'm glad you're back beautiful Brenda xo
27th Aug 2014 2:02am
Lovely Brenda, your absence
left a void for many.
I can safely speak for all, we sincerely
hoped and wished all was well.
Welcome back, Fair Lass.
Welcome home.
xo
left a void for many.
I can safely speak for all, we sincerely
hoped and wished all was well.
Welcome back, Fair Lass.
Welcome home.
xo
27th Aug 2014 5:39am
27th Aug 2014 6:10am
Ah!!! I've missed your writing so much.. When I noticed you were gone I was pretty down but I understand the paranoia part.. I've been getting it too lately but I love DUP...
27th Aug 2014 2:24pm
27th Aug 2014 7:17pm
4th Sep 2014 11:50pm
25th Nov 2014 2:25am
This piece gave my goose-bumps!! so much depth and flows so well. I love it!!
