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apology

Ive been putting alot in perspective.
So please try to be receptive.

Im sorry I never grew up the way you planned.
Or that I could never live up to the dreams that you had.
Im sorry I have a way of making you mad.
Or making you walk out on us dad.

☆I guess im sorry for being me
and all the thing I didnt see.
I guess im sorry for getting mad playin games and treatin ya bad.
I guess im sorry for treating you wrong.
Its another reason Im writting this song.
Im so sorry for being mean another reason im commin clean.☆

Im sorry for the words I said to hurt you
And all the bullshit ive put you through.
Im sorry for the nights you stayed up cryin.
Kept awake by our fighin.
I never ment to hit you so low.
The pain you felt now I know.
You held it in and stayed so calm.
Then you let it all out explode like a bomb.
But let me tell ya that dont make ya a bad mom.

☆☆

Im sorry ive never been there for you.
Raised to stick up for you.
But when life got you down
I was no where nowhere to be found.
Youve always had a place In my heart.
This is my apology hopin to resart.
Im sorry for every thing that I lack.
But keep you head up lil bro I always got your back.

☆☆

For all my friends who never stayed.
Yea you left me  feelin played even a bit betrayed.
But that was then and this is now.
Im sorry that I let you down.
I never really stuck around.
I ethier let you go or pushed you out.
But know im sorry no doubt.

☆☆
You dont have to forgiveme or tell me what I want to here.
Girl what I did to you has been eating at me for years.
Im sorry I made you wait and never came around.
Im sorry for flippin out when you moved on.
Im sorry for pushing you so underground.
Never wanting to admit you were really gone.

☆☆

And this is to those who ive betrayed.
Lessons learned a little late.
Im sorry I should of stayed out of it.
You kept buggin me just wouldnt quit.
I tried not to pick sides.
Still this guilt resides.

☆☆

And now for the biggest apology of all.
This goes out to the one I love.
Now im taking off my gloves, leting it all out….sort of.
Im sorry theres days I cant keep my head up.
And im sorry for all the things I mess up
Im sorry I drag you down all the time.
Bring you so low it should be a crime.
Im sorry i let you fall to pieces.
Yet what we have never ceases,
To amaze me or phaze me even when ya drive me crazy.
Im sorry I never let you in
I build walls bigger than berlin.
Locked inside, trying to hide.
All alone I remain confined.
Closterphobic and I cant break out.
Picking fights just to scream and shout.
Im sorry it seem like i dont care.
I can be across the room but never there.
But still I stand by your side.
Keep me here on this chaotic ride.
Obstacles we'll take in stride.
Plenty of time to sit and bide.
No longer will i quietly hide
I love you until the day I die



☆☆

Im sorry that I have to be so strict.
I may even come off as a bit of a prick.
Im only trying to push ya in the right direction.
Fill your lives with love and affection
Know your on my mind every single day
While im spending long hours away.
Gotta make a living and pay our way.
Keep your head up kid daddy loves you always

☆☆

Im sorry for always underestimating you.
No matter what you do you suprise me thru and thru.
Ive tourtured my sekf again and again
But not this time my friend.
I am here to call the end .
Let the past go, let the present begin.
Because the future is another trap in the end.

☆☆
Written by bmxer511901
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