I am not ok - You hurt me

I am not ok - You hurt me
I don’t know how to feel
I am numb
There is nothing
All I can think
Is like WOW!
Really,
You did that to me?


I have choices,
I should not have chosen you
I know your hiding something
I didn’t care, I loved you,
I loved you,
And you just threw me away
This would have been hard
But it just is not today


You do not love me
Stop lying
Either way I need time
I need a break
I just need time
I need to get away
I need a drink and
You threw me away


Love does not do this
Not the love I need
You’re not the one
I made a mistake, it is ok
Better we know now
Then to get stuck at a point of no return
I feel like a fool
I told everyone about you


I thought this was real
Guess I got to clean up the mess
Move on and strive for the best
I just can’t believe you threw me away
I noticed you changed, but hey I
Would have board you anyway


Now I can fuck who ever I desire and
Build the relationships international
I need for my dreams
I do not change
Erbil has a club I am dying to hit
And the men look fun and they dance


I will come and we will just be friends
I will not intrude in your life again
Just to be thrown away no thank you
Some men out there actually want me
I am just messed up
I am not fucked up
I am not a game I am just me
I just wanted you
You threw me away
I mean nothing to you
You just threw me away
No I am not okay
You hurt me
Lori