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It’s like a puzzle I am putting it all back together
It’s like a puzzle I am putting it all back together:
It’s another sleepless night
Tears will not stop falling, from my eyes
I forgive you
For not being who I needed
Please forgive me to
Because I did not understand you
Mom I did not know
All those years
You were hurting to
Seriously how
Can you be something?
You never new
I had so many questions
It’s too late now
All this mess is like a puzzle
I am putting it together
I needed you to know
That I get it
I was just a kid, I did not understand
You loved me
You had to
It must have been somewhere
Deep inside you,
I tried so damn hard
To be who you wanted me to
Why couldn’t you, be proud of me
I did everything you told me to
I just could not turn into a boy, for you
Is it because your mom didn’t want you
She only wanted boys to
You made me strong
And that is all you
I drove the trucks, changed the tires, raced the cars, fixed the house, beat up the jerks, I worked,
God did I work so hard, for you and my brothers to
Didn’t you no, didn’t you mom?
I never, ever blamed you
The things they did
You couldn’t stop it, if you tried to
I know it happened to you to
It’s another sleepless night
Tears will not stop falling from my eyes
Why is the past running through my mind?
Is it just to laugh, and taunt me?
This time I don’t hurt so bad
I am crying it’s sad
It doesn’t hurt so bad
I don’t need the wine; I don’t need to sleep,
I don’t need anyone to fuck the hell out of me
I think I am healing
I think this is the feeling
Mom, it will never go away, it’s just too late
I remember, you cried every night to
Your dad made you strong
By beat you till you bled to
I know, that’s why you did that to me
I am fixing all this mess
It’s like a puzzle
I am putting it all back together
Seascape aka Lori
For my Mother
It’s another sleepless night
Tears will not stop falling, from my eyes
I forgive you
For not being who I needed
Please forgive me to
Because I did not understand you
Mom I did not know
All those years
You were hurting to
Seriously how
Can you be something?
You never new
I had so many questions
It’s too late now
All this mess is like a puzzle
I am putting it together
I needed you to know
That I get it
I was just a kid, I did not understand
You loved me
You had to
It must have been somewhere
Deep inside you,
I tried so damn hard
To be who you wanted me to
Why couldn’t you, be proud of me
I did everything you told me to
I just could not turn into a boy, for you
Is it because your mom didn’t want you
She only wanted boys to
You made me strong
And that is all you
I drove the trucks, changed the tires, raced the cars, fixed the house, beat up the jerks, I worked,
God did I work so hard, for you and my brothers to
Didn’t you no, didn’t you mom?
I never, ever blamed you
The things they did
You couldn’t stop it, if you tried to
I know it happened to you to
It’s another sleepless night
Tears will not stop falling from my eyes
Why is the past running through my mind?
Is it just to laugh, and taunt me?
This time I don’t hurt so bad
I am crying it’s sad
It doesn’t hurt so bad
I don’t need the wine; I don’t need to sleep,
I don’t need anyone to fuck the hell out of me
I think I am healing
I think this is the feeling
Mom, it will never go away, it’s just too late
I remember, you cried every night to
Your dad made you strong
By beat you till you bled to
I know, that’s why you did that to me
I am fixing all this mess
It’s like a puzzle
I am putting it all back together
Seascape aka Lori
For my Mother
Published 29th Jul 2014
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