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i am the product of my father's rage and my mother's weakness
 
damaged goods and broken beyond what mortals can repair ~
i've pierced what's left of my heart
with the shards of my spirit
and i've learned to dance in the blood
like the pain had never existed
or driven me to deep self~loathing
//
i have french kissed death like a long lost lover
 
coded after trying to kill myself for the seventh time ~
in a mangled snarl of black metal
that left me partially blind
and too crippled to pursue the career
i've spent years perfecting to a fine art
until my insanity pissed it away
//
i have fucked my demons in a thorazine orgy
 
i bear the marks of my madness between my thighs ~
the scars on my taint tell the truth
of my love~hate affair with my lurid cunt
and the night we decided to sever ties
with a butchers knife as mediator
when my hatred overwhelmed rational thought
//
you have never loved the monster
who shared my bed for years
after bathing me and brushing my hair,
you have never felt his whispers  
against your six year old skin
.
.
.
you have never known
my straight jacket embrace
or the suicide notes on my bathroom wall
painted in menstrual blood
because i could no longer find veins
.
.
until you've made peace with yourself
and stopped repeating your mistakes
or walked a day in my stiletto heels
without falling to your knees
you have no room to judge me
_shadoe_
Written by _shadoe_ (katyusha)
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