Forever and Ever and Never

Who am I trying to fool?
Myself,
No doubt,
That you would ever reveal yourself to me...
Never.

You are a very traditional woman, with very conservative views and beliefs.
While I am a very liberal man with open thoughts and unrestrained feelings,
You see the strength of my resolve,
But also the weakness of my desires,
For I bend to your will.

I will desire you until the end of time,
But you will forever be my Sangreal,
Deep down I have known this to be true.

At first I believed,
If I could prove my love for you,
Then your heart would be mine,
But the answer is Never.

Then I thought,
If I could show you how the risks of discovery,
Are far outweighed by the passion we would share.
But the answer is Never.

I wonder,
How much longer can I go on?
How often can I be rejected?
What else might I do to release your love for me?

The answer I have discovered,
Is hidden -
Hidden in one of the many mysteries,
That is you.

So, I keep searching,
Cause the prize is not one night of passion,
Or some conquest - Never.
The prize I long for,
Is your Forever and Ever.

As time passes,
I reflect and realize,
That your heart,
Is not won in battle,
Or displayed for all to see - Never.

Your heart is a gift,
Freely given with your love,
And once given,
It is Forever and Ever.

So I surrender my quest,
Forsake my destiny,
As I can never possess you,
Or call you mine.

I can only admire and wish from afar,
Like gazing upon the night sky,
Wondering, what it would be like,
To hold your star Forever and Ever.