Let Me Go

Maybe it's all a lie
Maybe i've been misled
All these questions
They drive me insane

How can i love in a community filled with hate?
How can i be authentic where pretending dominates?
How can i praise with a throat raw from screaming?
How can i sleep when it's nightmares i'm dreaming?
How can i lead when i've been left behind?
How can i help when i can't do anything right?
How can i care if i've been betrayed?
And how can i smile when my joy has decayed?

All of these questions, i just want out!
I invested my life and now i'm in debt
Doomed to suffer til i pay it back
Well i'm done with this and i'm running away
You can try to catch me, but i won't be contained!

Of course i blame Him for my broken life
The One who 'blessed me' with a drunk dad and dead infant brother
I hope your happy as i drown in thought
So unsure of what to believe
Nothing, or a God with a trick up His sleeve?

Can you prove to me there's a reason to stay?
Answer me!
Don't want to waste another day
Why do i always end up in this place
With your arms wrapped around me in a choking embrace

I don't call this freedom
Condemnation no doubt
I'm scratching and clawing, desperate to get out
Let me go! Can't you see i don't want this anymore?
It's only turned my life into an unwanted chore