Rape

They say rape is a terrible thing, indeed it is, more than terrible. Not just hurting the feelings of another but damaging their inner being, tainting and contaminating their consciousness. Those who rape or do not all the evil in it apparently do not deserve to live on this planet according to the almighty guide to being a civilized human being. Maybe so. If so I must be one vile, depraved son of a bitch disregarding the Aspergers Syndrome. My bones are corroded with self pity, hatred, and lack of empathy and now I am just tired. More and more caged birds are starting to sing, relationships are like elevators to me. Big metal contraptions set to fail eventually, maybe explode, get crushed to bits and pieces. All I simply want at the moment is a good fuck. I just want to know what it feels like. It's easy being that underprivileged kid with Aspergers Syndrome living in a shitty city, shitty neighborhood, surrounded by shitty people who don't give a shit about you or any of your fucking problems. It's easy being rejected, it's easy being labeled as that creepy weird guy with no friends, the druggie. Just as easy as it is being rejected by so many girls. It's sad when you're the nice guy and you just have to sit back and watch all the tools go to work and pick up girls with their nice hair, their pretty smiles and their fit physique. You later watch them treat girls like shit while you know you could do a lot better, knowing she could do a lot better. You try but she just pushes you away. I could try to be more obnoxious, repulsive. Although I've tried that and the outcomes have not been pretty, not once. I've had a lot of respect for females in the past though my inner demons are causing me to transcend into an even deeper darkness day by day. Misogynistic ways indeed. I used to hate seeing females get beaten, get raped, reamed against their will, slain like dragons. Though now I seem to fancy it in some ways, just look at one of my oldest writes here "Lady Killer". That wasn't simply just for fun, it was more of a way to let out my anger towards females in general. Call it melodramatic if you will. I understand. Some people kill themselves over the fact that they can simply not achieve getting a girlfriend. Yes times can be very lonely. Very very lonely. I am now watching a vlog on feminism and how they tend to refer to rape very often when it comes to women's rights. A bunch of jargon if you will. The man in the screen says those who rape or do not feel it as a foul disgusting thing are vile people who do not deserve to live on this planet. This statement is coming from a man who also does not feel empathy for most human beings. Though now my feelings for females seem to have completely changed. I disagree. I shall no longer watch them achieve as I sit on the bench. Life is short. Let's get to work shall we?