Shadows

My head is such a blur
Shadows of memories past
Seeping back through the cracks
of the walls I put up to bind them
I toss
and I turn
scared of sleep once again
I don't want to dream
Give me that sweet deep blackness of sleep I usually have.
I don't want to scream
I don't want to cry
But I can't stop this ever present flow
It keeps getting faster and faster
This flowing of memories
Nothing seems to quiet it
Nothing seems to stop it
Why now?
Almost 5 years later
I've been fine
No screaming
No crying
Just ever blissful darkness
Just go away
back to your box
leave me in peace
Because I don't want to be in pieces again