Apology

My friend, I seem to have known you forever
I laid my heart out before you
and hugged you in the rain
my head resting on your shoulder

To me it was love
to you..

I guess it was nothing

You sent me the most heartfelt apology
I knew you truly meant it
but can you truly learn to change?
you were the first to ever want me
how can I sever this love for you?

You were my best friend
or so I thought
You were the best I had
but now I know I was wrong

He gave me love
told me I was his priority
he stitched the scars you left open
mended me until I was unbroken

Many of the verses I have written
I have written with your name
on my lips

Many of the scars I once wrote on my wrist
I wrote in the dead of night
hoping you wouldn't see them on my skin

I'm so sorry
you mean so much to me
how can I throw you away
when I know
it will only kill me inside?

You used me
you bruised me
you broke me
you tossed me aside

You're like a blissful poison on my lips
I lick you up like a dog on coolant
even though you're killing me
I'll still lay on my deathbed
begging for more

A friend of mine once told me-
you're toxic
toxic to me

I'm sorry,
but I think that..

I think I must finally let you go