Goodbye mom and dad

My parents say I'm blowing it all out of proportion  
But how else should I take it when I find I was nothing but a failed abortion?
Despite all of the things and my sad pathetic life  
And all of the pain, heartache and strife  
I find out that I was never even wanted at all
No wonder my family was never there to catch me when I fall
All my years of flirting with suicide  
I don't think so hard I've ever cried  
So I'll just give them what they wanted for the past 19 years
And all this time I thought maybe it was one of their fears
To lose their last daughter  
But after all this time I find they tried to have me slaughtered  
I should have known I was always treated like the devils spawn
Don't worry it will all end at dawn
It's ok mom and dad
I'm sorry I made you so mad
I'll fix it for you guys so can finally be happy  
I didn't mean to make your life so crappy  
I got the knife in my hand right now see?
You guys can finally be free
I'll make sure I'll go in real deep
So that way I won't wake up when I go to sleep
I take the knife and clench my fist
And slowly slide it across my scarred pathetic wrist  
My blood level drops to a serious degree
It will be all over soon you'll see