What I Feel As True

Note: I wrote this feeling something deep inside me move and swell with what I feel as to be true of me and the world. I do not mean for this to be interpreted as being true in any form, shape , or fashion. However feel free to expand and/or correct me if you feel this to be flawed and/or incomplete. (Also I went off topic so bear with me)

We are a physical, anatomically composed organism that only consists as an automated unit of existence thru a complex and vague concept that we all the consciousness. But what exactly is this, the consciousness we speak of as a physical entity that exists within us? Many have believed that the mind is the seat of consciousness somewhere in that complex machine that allows the body to be animated in sorts. Yet what actually gives us "life" is this consciousness that we speak of, this autonomous entity completely separate from the body and actual mind. What we have longed to do is put a name, a label to a mysterious and unprecedented thing that we cannot describe. We are the very fabric and material of the Universe and no matter how hard we seem to try we fail at describing such a basic principle in this Universe. So many of us live an existence that dulls and wanes over time due to an existential doubt that we ourselves have allowed to be created. We have put value on everything from the vast and ever growing entity-that is ourselves-the Universe to such unfulfilling and undefining thing called money. We believe that we are separate from each other yet we are just a part of an ever larger and ever expanding entity that cannot be named because we are it. It is all around us, in between, outside, inside, we are it the glorious explosion of stars and the beginning of single celled organisms. From atoms and neutrons to the vast and farthest reaches of the Universe. How amazing is that, to be a part of a fanatical and brilliant existence that we call life. To be able to anatomically analyze the very fabric that without we would have never even existed. So many names have been applied to this entity such as God, Yahweh, The Tree of Life, Zeus, and various other labels that will never be able to encapsulate the whole wonder and magnificence of it. Even these words fail to grasp the awe-dropping and easily mind blowing experience such as this. To be a part of it yet also to be able to be it at the same time is such a rare gift and privilege that we have given ourselves. To be able to analyze all that makes us, what is , the air that we breathe, the sun that shines, to the very protons, neutrons, electrons that compose everything. We are able to see it, experience it, be it, analyze it, breathe it, we can do everything with it. We are so special, each and every single one of us on this planet and among the stars wherever we are for we are all of it. We exist because we exist. We have been it for so long that we wanted to experience it so we became a part of it so now we are it. The magnificence of this single moment of realization of being it and all the aspects of it is so belligerently amazing that it throws one's mind into complete and utter fascination and chaos. For we have long forgotten that we are it most of us experience a spiritual, physical, and mental disconnection of ourselves that we forget we are it. The fabric of life is us, the planets, moons, the Sun in the solar system is us, the galaxies, stars, supernovas, black holes, quasars, matter is all US!!!! We are it. How wonderful and complete it feels in this one moment of utter bliss and ecstasy. To come to terms with ourselves and start being a part of it as we have always and forever will be a part of it.The joy, the amazement, the wonder of this whole thing is astounding and alive that it compels me to continue to feel it inside of me. To breathe it in, to think of it, to be a part of it, to be it is so wonderful in this place of here and now. I forever wish to continue dancing among the stars, shine the brilliance of a thousand suns in one being, explode into a chaotic frenzy of matter, give birth to life in distant planets, create myself and all of it. For we will forever be it.