Crazy Thoughts

I can never go to heaven
All the shit I done – did
My mind all tied up like some suicidal kid
I keep searching for myself
I can't find me on no grid
Feel like I’m going crazy
My mind is so lazy
My heart wont stop
Even after a shot by that cop
My body has been through a lot
Bullet riddled looking like a map
I feel like I'm the enemy of the world's end
Because of ethnic cleansing thoughts I have that will never end
Thoughts of mass suicide
Thoughts of bloody rivers
Thoughts of stinking bodies being burnt in cities
Thoughts of creating monsters from infant body parts
Thoughts of killing babies
Thoughts of raping old ladies
Thoughts of making myself the world's ruler
Thoughts of being a dictator

Just my crazy thoughts after actions that have banned me from heaven
I will never get there after my many troubles
I will be in hell with some of you
Just another crazy sinner that never made friends with God