How I feel

I haven't given up hope just yet
but I wouldn't start placing any bets
is this really how it's going to be?
me questioning whether or not you love me
my heart is heavy and I can't find release
I used to turn to you but my actions are deceased
I don't know what to do
when my heart is lonely with you
my tears feel like acid as they fall
burning through it all
are we really in love? were we ever?
were we too young to promise forever?
I'm so confused and all you can say
is that you are sorry, I don't want to hear it
I have to admit, your sorry doesn't seem legit
but maybe I have changed a lot since you've been gone
maybe I need more attention and I feel so low
because I know you are cursed to always leave, always go
I know a lot of my heart still loves you
But I've been turning all crazy kinds of blue
all because I miss you even when your here with me
I miss being your center, now I am just an orb
revolving around you like a silly fly
I love you but is this love still worth fighting for?