Self Loathing

Thought you were many prince in shining armour
But you're the evil witch out to do me harm
Wish I'd found out before
And could have defeated you while I was strong
I've endured this pain for far too long

My reward for loving you all this while
Is for you to put me in exile

How many rivers must I cry?
How much time must pass by?
Until I am cured?
Until I've moved on?
Until I'm finally able to say goodbye?

They say time heals all wounds
But time's made mine bleed worse
It feels like I've suffered one million dooms
How could you make me feel so cursed?

I changed for you, but it was never enough
I gave you may heart, my soul, my love
But you were not satisfied. It wasn't enough
I'll never feel comfort until the day I've died

I won't be rid of this pain until I'm cold in the ground
Am I that loathsome to be around?
Am I too loud, even though I haven't made a sound?

How is a life without alone better than one with me?
I know I will eventually be happy
Soon my sadness will fill with anger
And I'll hope you're alone and hurt forever after.