Mayday

 
     Mayday
-For my mother

Two decades have flown by.
I look back but the smoke blurs my vision.
Speaking of vision…
My wings have carried me this far so
Why land now?
It is the only way out.
Almost to the clouds that I see in my dreams,
Almost to your smile which my eyes have never seen.
Ill never see it if I do not chase it.
Ironic he flew on a one-way trip with your happiness,
But I was your luggage for nine months.
He left you and me.
Such a thief he was, such a thief he is.
That is one thing that I will not be.
The flight from womb to tomb cannot be timed.
When
Will I land?
Where
Will I land?
Up here or down there?
Too many worries…Just keep flying.
The most important thing that I have learned on this journey is that the pursuit of happiness comes with miles and miles of turbulence.
If I let that make me let you down,
Miles and Miles of turbulence…
Then no one else will lift you up.
I grab the parachute.
But I’m almost there…
I’m almost there.
I see it.
I put the parachute back down.
This is no ordinary plane.
One chance to ride, one chance to fly.
So I am on this flight and I won’t stop...
I see your dead smile slowly embracing its beauty as I become a man.
Almost to the clouds that I see in my dreams,
Almost to your smile which my eyes have never seen.
Until the clock stops.
Static-filled voice says prepare for a crash landing.
I check my seatbelt and put on my mask.
I am not afraid.
One chance to ride, one chance to fly.
Find what you love and let it kill you.
I open my eyes.
It’s like when I first saw you on June 24, 1993.
Mama we made it.

Sincerely.