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The White Tide
I saw far, far away, across a vast distance.
There was sweet grass and trees.
There was a shadowy entity;
I could not focus on what it was, so I looked away.
In a boxed room
there was a white tide undreamt;
it was there resting as a state of mind.
I studied the outside world in movement,
scanning the significance;
steadfast with courage and trembling,
unthinking in modals or dialect,
reacting only to some snow
blossoms that crept in overnight;
swirls of white coming down on me,
everything mixed with confusion;
there was breathing pings of needling magic;
an immensity greater than life.
Clinging to garments, free of inhabitants,
I could never outrun the white tide.
Sweeping over land and sea,
I talk to poetry! I talk to poetry!
The movement was gone momentarily
as it left the vision of vastness
there again in the wake, unannounced
stirring with little speech,
returning suddenly without cause,
it drew the face near, seeing me.
At times I'll write of the white tide. As far back as I can remember there was a white tide. I suffered Macropsia and Micropsia up until I was about 36 years old, but the disorientation was only there when I closed my eyes. I could never talk about it, and in my young mind I named it the white tide. I never wanted to shut my eyes; it was terrifying. The sufferings were concentrated in my childhood, and little by little they lingered away.
There was sweet grass and trees.
There was a shadowy entity;
I could not focus on what it was, so I looked away.
In a boxed room
there was a white tide undreamt;
it was there resting as a state of mind.
I studied the outside world in movement,
scanning the significance;
steadfast with courage and trembling,
unthinking in modals or dialect,
reacting only to some snow
blossoms that crept in overnight;
swirls of white coming down on me,
everything mixed with confusion;
there was breathing pings of needling magic;
an immensity greater than life.
Clinging to garments, free of inhabitants,
I could never outrun the white tide.
Sweeping over land and sea,
I talk to poetry! I talk to poetry!
The movement was gone momentarily
as it left the vision of vastness
there again in the wake, unannounced
stirring with little speech,
returning suddenly without cause,
it drew the face near, seeing me.
At times I'll write of the white tide. As far back as I can remember there was a white tide. I suffered Macropsia and Micropsia up until I was about 36 years old, but the disorientation was only there when I closed my eyes. I could never talk about it, and in my young mind I named it the white tide. I never wanted to shut my eyes; it was terrifying. The sufferings were concentrated in my childhood, and little by little they lingered away.
Published 23rd May 2014
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23rd May 2014 9:41pm
Wow - u r getting so good - brilliant movement pace - revelatory on so many levels
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25th May 2014 5:08pm
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3rd Jun 2014 10:52am
This feels far more spiritual than neurological. I am especially fond of words
"there again in the wake, unannounced
stirring with little speech,
returning suddenly without cause,
it drew the face near, seeing me".
because it gives me the impression of a caring entity of unconditional Love, in essence of a white rush (tide).
"there again in the wake, unannounced
stirring with little speech,
returning suddenly without cause,
it drew the face near, seeing me".
because it gives me the impression of a caring entity of unconditional Love, in essence of a white rush (tide).
its been such a journey, I'm feeling very spiritual now just reading your words, I thank you so much. I'm older now and all, but it really was about finding myself and forgiving myself and all those things that spiritual gurus will tell you, and so I remembered this little write to share with you,
I never would write, knowing all my life that I was a writer and that's just too long of a story to tell, But I put my pen to the paper one day about four years ago now, and this is what it said to me
and did he teach you to read...
no mas
for he taught me to see
the majesty & beauty in me
for the mirror I did find
that i had the courage to gaze
reflected understanding in you
and I thought that was so cool and I've not been afraid to write ever since. And that's what your "entity of unconditional Love" statement reminded me of.
The white tide is strange, its dead now. I think of it as a room, like a sun-room, full of dead and dried out plants that do not grow anymore. But its very unique in that I can go into that room and imagine everything as it once was, an draw it into my imagination. Thank you so much for reading this, and understanding. oh, the neurological. I've always had a little fatty tumor at the base of my skull on the bottom right - its benign though and always was, it was just something there that mom kept an eye on. I didn't suffer the traditional symptoms such as headaches or open-eyed distorted visions, it was all there inside when my eyes were closed. it was just scary and weird.
I never would write, knowing all my life that I was a writer and that's just too long of a story to tell, But I put my pen to the paper one day about four years ago now, and this is what it said to me
and did he teach you to read...
no mas
for he taught me to see
the majesty & beauty in me
for the mirror I did find
that i had the courage to gaze
reflected understanding in you
and I thought that was so cool and I've not been afraid to write ever since. And that's what your "entity of unconditional Love" statement reminded me of.
The white tide is strange, its dead now. I think of it as a room, like a sun-room, full of dead and dried out plants that do not grow anymore. But its very unique in that I can go into that room and imagine everything as it once was, an draw it into my imagination. Thank you so much for reading this, and understanding. oh, the neurological. I've always had a little fatty tumor at the base of my skull on the bottom right - its benign though and always was, it was just something there that mom kept an eye on. I didn't suffer the traditional symptoms such as headaches or open-eyed distorted visions, it was all there inside when my eyes were closed. it was just scary and weird.
