Emotional Compulsion

Right or wrong
I cannot feel guilt
For following my heart
Even if it turns to the direction of a stranger
It matters not
When it leads me to reach out
I often listen
Because I cannot stand the thought
Of someone else being alone
In a situation I understand
Although sometimes I may hedge
It never serves me well
Because what I feel inside
Is too strong for me to take
And so, I go with it
Because it just feels correct
Despite any logical thought
That it may not be wanted
But it's like, I can't think
I only feel
It's nearly unstoppable
Fighting no longer optional
The only time I act irrational
And surrender to the compulsion of impulse
Is when I connect to something deeply
So much so that I must do all I can
While waves of fear and sadness wash over me
Emotional memory goes into overdrive
My mind recalls exactly what it's like
And I feel the flood surround me
Consuming my state in that moment
I expand my heart wide open
To offer my hand at assurance
An attempt I'm not sure went well
But I tried because I had to
You don't know how strong I connected
I'd love to tell you if you asked
But in your silence I'm left nervous
It's okay
I understand
I just want you to know that if I didn't try I'd regret it
And I'd rather take a risk than do nothing at all
Because that is worth it to me
Even if you're unhappy or scared
At least you knew that someone cared
For that brief amount of time
And that you were thought of in that moment

And for the record
You still are