Demons

I am fighting my own worse demons. Every day they raise their heads a little bit higher. Ready to jump thinking that today is the day I might finally break and lash out. I can't fight them forever. They are getting stronger with each passing day. Each breath that passes my lips. They bathe in my misery. Loving each mistake and heartbreak I endure. What am I to do? To try and banish them, is like taking a piece from my very being and throwing it away. If I acomplish this, will I feel whole again? Or have a huge piece missing from me? Its so long since I haven't had them. I honestly don't know if I can live without them....Yet to live with them is a whole new hell in itself. I have no choice but to cut them from me and brave the new life without them. Sure one day they will come crawling back, but by then I will be a different person. A stronger person. I'm ready to battle the demons within me, are you?