Self-Inflicted Misery

Confusion, Chaos, Self-Destruction...Inner-Confliction and Mind-Constriction...Burning obsessions, desire for affection,bridges burned, mistakes made over and over and over again...I lied to myself and blew my cover...Secrets hidden right below the surface, begin to take root...I am silenced, visually mute and twisted deep in illusion...Do I trust my own thoughts?Can I find a solution to this endless misery? The demon is inpsyde of me, clawing, tearing a hole to get out and is taking control of my soul...There is no shred of doubt in my twisted mind, this journey is far from over and I am still searching for what I can't find...There is a chill in my core, my spirit is in bind of blinding-white self-infliction...the incision has been made, deep into the soul and it creeps out of the darkest, pitch-black hole.