Finding Myself

to all of those that I have neglected
through this process
please accept my apology
to my friends
and family
whom I am withdrawn from
I cannot say
I am sorry enough
I started this
and now, I’m not sure how to end it
if I leave it behind now
I’m afraid that it will
pop back up later
and I will regret not seeing it through

the last thing I need
is more demons
and ghosts
to haunt
and torment me
as I continue to
search my soul
as I forge through
all of this muck
I lose more of myself in the hopes
of finding myself again