Pleasure

You crave the urgency of how my body once
Responded to your deep lustful calls
Trembling, shaking, nervous with animalistic tendencies
Hard to tame and ready to roam free, wild, for you, with you
Oh how I loved the desirability I felt in your hands
And how my frame tempted you so strongly
Your eyes fixated on everything I had to offer
Made me feel like I was the only one who could satisfy you
I felt the hunger you had for me, exclusive
Hard to resist control when you just wanted
To give yourself to me in every way
So that you could take me and do as you pleased
My body the ultimate playground for your adventures
Oh yes, I remember, how I let you
I would submit to every craving you ever had
Your pleasure was the driving force for my kiss to move you
How my lips craved the satisfaction of your luscious taste
You, constantly enveloping my senses
Invading my space, taking me beyond planetary fields
Electric, sparks pierced through my heart
Pulling me to you with magnetic force
Unquestionably I was yours
Gravity lost its standing while my center became your universe
We floated as one, where you absorbed my desire
And took me on rides I'd only dared to dream
Cries of pleasure the only sounds to leave my mouth
There was no fighting it and no denying it
I was constantly open to your love, wide for almost anything
Until you took me for granted and
Threw everything I gave to you away
Like garbage, dirty, used like dirt
Stomped on, broken, forgotten, hurt
But I did not put myself out there to go unappreciated
I laid down my nakedness for you to love and cherish
Trusted you to protect my vulnerabilities and shelter me from harm
While you became the enemy as I laid in your arms
How was I to know, that you would become so distant
That you would never want to truly be close
And that disconnection was imminent
Still I kept on giving myself to you, foolishly
To have and to hold through good times and bad
To treat with tenderness and to love hard
To give your all to me as I gave my all to you
But when I found out that wasn't true
And that you were never going to
I knew what I had to do
Because I could not find pain in your pleasure anymore
So I took the love you stole from my heart
And began pleasuring myself
Loving me limitlessly and without conditions
Reaching deep inside, providing the touch of help
That my heart longed for, racing, fast
Thrusting me into action, getting me where I need to go
Reminding myself of the difference
Between true love and lies
And now I smile
Feeling so good inside