why so sad

Depression creeps in my mind
and the cold lonley chill
i want to cry or scream
but to what end
i caan no longer pretend
or fake happiness
as stolen moments
tear at my heart
my mind makes
everything good feel bad
all this love i oncee had
the emotional vampirres
suck any joy from the air
before it reaches my presense
im on the edge the verge
of something but its not viable
just a thought lisssstless and lazy
it is a gleaming spark light
its hope off in the distance
One sseemingly to far from my grasp
why does happiness ever elusive
unreal thing one i can find but not keep
id go hide in sleep but have done it so much
my dreams even turn me away