Smoke & Revelation

So..
Many days have past in a haze

Perhaps because Ive been overwhelmed
In my other worldly daze..

Taking long tokes
of my lovely green smoke...

Just so..
I dont choke...
on another days bullshit

Cause some days...
Shit.. gets thick
So I have to think quick
about my next move...

As I strive to improve
the current state of my mind
See sanity , and maddness
have always been a thin line

A thin line that
I've always balanced
Like a gymnist on a beam
As I fight demons when I sleep
I wrestle in my dreams...

I wake at 3 am ...
to foriegn shadows on my wall

Dancing images of the netherworld
forcing me to heed there call

So I light my joint
then I close my eyes
and pray that Creator
has heard my cries...

As my soul swims
In & Out...
of this faint reality

I realize...
If I am to survive...
Then... it's really up to me

I've spent the last month
contemplating... which direction
I want to go...

Listening to meditations
that are supposed to
make my Chakras flow

Realizing... the next steps...
are all about my will

So in the wee hours
of the morning
I toke & keep real still

No time for more mistakes
In Life...
No more time to
self decieve

Yet...nothing can change
Until I decide...
what it is I really believe

As I toke spoke like an Elder...
On A reservation
Breathing in smoke...
Till I get...

My revelation