Watching for Rain

In this world I see dark clouds of
greed, depravity, lack of accountability,
raining down laziness, deceit, and lies.
 Capable of drowning everything and everyone
no one wants to open up their eyes..
 Whether you are sinking in this flood,
play hand in the devastation brought,
 or have become indifferent to all the blood;  
The effect is still the same.
 lost is youthful optimism, not all people are good,
and not all people deserve to be let back into the game…
 Cautious, leery, and less inclined to give of self…
However,  a spark of hope…in me remains.
 In myself..others I can not change..
Hope.. to be better today than in past,
  I will find in me the strength needed to pass
thru this world and not be beaten by it,
  courage that will last.
Hope.. to forgive myself for transgressions
  so in turn forgiveness to others, I can give.  
Hope..to not become bitter and cold,
 I will remain warmed by an inner desire,
learning to live.
 So I fan that spark when I am able…
   one day it will be a flame…..
until then…… I watch for rain.