the simple reality of it all

I seem to be stuck in a place between this world and the next...a place between reality and dreams, is this suppose to happen when you finally decide to give up? To float in nothingness forever...Never to touch, see, feel again. How strange it all seems. Maybe this isn't the worst thing to happen, because theirs no pain and suffering here..Their is nothing. Though can I learn to stay here, or will I go crazy from the lack of pain and silence I am so use to? Decisions decisions and only seconds in which to make them..Light comes with pain and yet some happiness to help the balance in life itself. The dark comes with freedom of pain, but nothing else just a simple state of being in silence. It's the final moment time to choose...I choose..I choose...LIGHT! I would rather feel the pain of every day life, then to go forever being a empty shell!