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Snuggling In

I tried to keep the dream alive    
my mind working to remember the events    
but alas, like a flamed match it's beautiful    
brightness faded away before vanishing,    
puff! gone.    
   
I stretched into star shapes    
Yawning quietly as not to wake the house just yet.    
   
Well I'm still doing star shapes and yawning,    
He can have that small segment of the bed,    
   
actually I lie..    
   
I want him as close as possible, even if we combust with the  
heat of bodily contact, bring it on, bodily contact for the win,  
combust or not.    
   
God I bet I look a mess, bet he does too in the mornings,    
he wont sneak out of bed in the early hours to do    
mirror maintenance work though before he see's me    
it's a girl thing, Men have it lucky.    
   
5am, soo early, He started out at 4    
bless he really needs to rest up some, without stopping no way    
He will call at every stop, my phones on the bed, actually in my    
hand, I know he wont answer my texts as he drives, and yes I    
know he knows how much, but I just gotta be telling him again.    
and again, ok ok I'll put the phone down.    
   
   
So this is really happening, I wont believe it until he's in my    
arms tonight, no, actually not until i wake up with him    
tomorrow, Oh he's going to be soo tired from travelling, Hmm how    
tired.    
   
   
515am it's no good, I'll have to text him again, just once more    
then I gotta be cleaning house making breakfast, yawn, sod it,    
hours away I will leave it all and lay here till he's 30 mins    
away then panic  hahaha    
   
It's funny why is that?, when you laugh by yourself, kinda weird    
will text him about that right now.    
   
Feel kinda giddy excited for the moment but scared for the future    
I know he does too, it's not going to be easy but being together    
and working it out step by step makes sense, long distance is    
too painful to cope with.    
   
Fuck, why is that, he's not here yet and I'm already thinking of    
him going back, maybe he can stay for good, maybe we can all move    
to a suitable location god I hate departing so.    
   
It'll work out, as he said    
it'll work if you want it too, well hell yes! I want it to work    
wouldn't and cant go back anyway,    
   
we both kinda made sure of that.    
Not easy, but quick decisive, raw and painful and will be for    
both of us for awhile me more so, his connections severed    
completely, I have my reasons for the unwanted lingering and    
will do for some time, he knows its as it has to be, he's ok    
with it.    
   
I cant believe we haven't even slept together, I hope he likes    
my bed, our bed, bed? hahaha,  laughing to myself again, bed? I    
hope he likes me in it too!    
   
Oh lovely, lovely bed, as we are in the throws of making    
love..haha    
   
   
The one thing we never had to discuss was how compatible we    
would be in the bedroom, it's weird, but as he said, he knows    
what he can do, and do it well he does in sexts, I trust him to    
just be who he is, no need to be anyone else, I love him, just as    
he is, it's who I fell for, who I want.    
   
   
Yeah, well I can do what I say I can too, but will play it by    
ear and take it as it comes, hahaha  oops    
   
I have no hang ups with sex, If he walked in now, well I'd just    
reveal my star shapes without the duvet..    
   
Actually no,    
   
I'd be shocked and run screaming to the bathroom covering my    
morning face only to appear one hour later beautified to the max    
full makeup, hair done, showered, only to find him snoring on    
the bed, a bit loose at the seams, sigh  oh well. but as Emily  
said in bagpuss, she loved him so.    
   
joking aside, I have no issues regarding him taking me to bed.    
   
It's everything else that concerns,    
I mean it's been awhile, awhile?  bloody ages more like,    
is he as keen as he says he is,    
it's not a quiet house, times never your own here,    
its not quite the me and him walking along parisian walkways    
alone hand in hand take off on the spur, doesn't happen here    
though sure we can arrange the "us" moments, even if they are    
just in the quiet of the night when we are alone.    
   
oh he knows silly me he wouldn't have risked all otherwise    
that's another box ticked off    
but all the same we can take it easy slow when he gets here    
talk often I will to him too, keep a watchful eye to make sure    
he's ok I'm sure he will do likewise. teamwork afterall, its
teamwork, even in love    
   
   
5:30 am well I did wait a little while, god he's going to think    
me mad keep texting him I mean I said miss you and love you like    
ten times alre..  ok sixteen times, lying to myself, oh that's    
smart  hahaha    
   
I'm not going to overly dress up, look silly all dolled up when    
we are not actually going anywhere no, just shower and hair and    
ok, some makeup,, yawn, more star stretches.    
   
oh well, the house is coming alive with noise, such is life    
best I get up, nah, hahaha    
   
The beautiful noises can come to me    
I'm snuggling in for keeps.    
   
   
   
 
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