Love - Hate Struggle

UGH!!!
I HATE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW!!
GIVING ME THAT LOOK UH-UH DONT GIVE ME THAT SMILE!
THAT LITTLE PUPPY DOG SMUG LOOK ON YOUR CUTE FACE
those cute innocent looking eyes, and the cheeks are so puffy i wanna squeeze em....WAIT!!

I'M FUCKIN MAD AT YOU!!
 you know, sometimes i wish the world was like myspace and face book
with a block button
just a tiny press and *poof*
man i pressed that block button so damn hard on you
i thought my mouse broke
cant get to me now brah!!
damn i miss him...one day later
yea i unblocked you "hey dude how you doin?" 

BUT I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU!!
I WANNA FORGET YOU, DELETE YOU FROM MY MEMORIES,
ERASE YOU FROM MY THOUGHTS
I NEVER SHOULD HAVE TALK TO YOU FROM THE START 

baby i still love you but i hate you right now
we broke up and agreed to be friends but
in my mind i'm thinkin i've made a mistake
oh yea we still mad cool.acting like that "almost year" never happened
laugh-laugh giggle-giggle
in the back of my mind i'm thinkin
FUCK A FRIEND ZONE 
and if you tell me about your "new love" i know i'll get angry
jealousy and envy
knockin on my heart
tearing me apart 

we both acting like it didnt hurt when we broke up
but i was thinkinWHY THE HELL DID WE DO THAT?!
agreed to be friends a couple of days before our anniversary
that day came i cried like a baby
lookin back to 6th grade when we first came cool
remembering our first kiss 6 years later 

people asked me "well why ya'll broke up? did he cheat? did he hit you? was he wrong?"
"was it your fault susie?"
no i dont think we did anything wrong
we love each other
still do to this day
everything was straight
we didnt fight or argue in our relationship
i guess we just moved backwards
not really talkin on the phone or seeing each other
cause we were too busy
i know i missed you but i dont know if you missed me
to tell you the truth i thought you got bored with me
you said you thought the same thing
still we ended it... 

NOW COLLEGE IS COMIN UP
NEW PLACES, NEW PEOPLE
turning down numbers stayin single
hoping you'll come back to me
"dayumm susie he fine why you didnt get his number"
"i dont know gurl"
BUT I DO KNOW
WHEN WE BROKE UP
YOU TOOK MY SWAG..
I DONT WANT NOBODY BUT YOU
I'M HUNG UP ON YOU
AND I HATE YOU FOR IT...
 
but then i love you even more..
you was my first true love
and when you moved
i was glad
cause i didnt have to see your face anymore
but then again...i felt my heart crash
youre also my best friend.. 

i lay in my bed thinkin to myself "am i crazy?"
thinkin about you...
i'm thinkin about you
EVERY FREAKIN DAY!!
cant sleep sitting here writing this damn poem
and i hope you read this
and tell me how you feel about it 
and by writing this
hey!
i think i'm over you!
*phone rings* OH MY GOSH!! IS THIS A TEXT FROM YOU?!?!
lemme hurry and reply back dont wanna keep you waitin........
.......damn i love that boy.... 
ok where was i?

oh yea this love-hate struggle.
maybe we could've made it work
maybe it was for the best we broke up
maybe we'll get back together one day
maybe never at all 

CANT YOU SEE THAT I STILL FREAKIN LOVE YOU?!?
NAH FUCK THAT !!! I FREAKIN HATE YOU
YOUR VOICE, YOUR SCENT, YOUR EYES, YOUR TOUCH
THE MEMORIES WE SHARED I HATE THEM SO MUCH

but then i love them because they made me happy...
you.. made me happy baby i hate that i love you
this love-hate strugglewhat else can i do?
everytime i try to forget about you
i think about you even more
is it even possible that you love someone more
even if you two break up and agreed to be friends?
i think ima have this struggle till the end..
i love you...