ambiguity of oral sex
A week after high school graduation, a group of my classmates drove to the
country, to a picnic area near a lake. it was the final summer of our youth.
Soon after, most of us young men would be conscripted into the Army, &
most of the girls would convert to the status of barefoot, pregnant housewives.
After a meal of hamburgers, hot dogs, homemade potato salad, & cold beer,
everyone ran to the lake, except for myself & a red-haired girl. I remember she
had freckles, that for some reason my mates found less attractive than the
pure cream skin of the other girls. my blooming poetic spirit enabled me to
realize that those freckles added another level of beauty to her face.
‘I’m going for a walk,’ she said, & looked at me for a minute before beginning
her stroll. I immediately followed. Shortly, we came to a lush patch of ground
under a broad shading tree.
With no warning, she said ‘take off your clothes,’ & quickly removed her sandals,
light top, & shorts. Somewhat hesitant, I took off my tee-shirt & shorts, but left
my briefs on. ‘You’re so fucking shy!’ It was the first time I’d heard a girl use that
word, & I was humorously shocked. She pulled them down my hips & legs, & I
lay on my back in the grass.
She seemed intrigued as she gazed at my erection; I wondered if she might mount
me. instead, she ran her fingertips gently down my length, as I shuddered. She
took my hardness in her fist, & lowered her mouth around it…
If this was a common blow job, it was cast in the aura of regal beauty, by virtue of
the sensitivity of the skin around the phallic root, & the extraordinary manipulation
of a girl’s mouth & tongue.
After some delirious moments, I told her that she had to stop, that I couldn’t
restrain myself. she uttered a low moan, like an animal preparing to feast. She
had driven me beyond discretion & decorum, as the creaming emissions of my
passion poured from my insides… I did something then that was deemed forbidden
after oral sex: I kissed her.
As the brilliant glow of our interlude faded, we simply lay there, side by side,
watching the sky…
Shortly thereafter, fate took us in different directions, & I never saw her again. But I
would always remember the wonder of our sensual adventure, & her freckles…
although despondent, that I never fucked her.