Broken Again

broken and broken again
how can I explain the pain that I'm in?
I've loved and I've loved
with rough hands that were ungloved
too many times have i been thrown to the floor
I can't and I won't do it anymore
I love and I love but it's never enough
Shoved down and shoved down,I'm just sick of this stuff
I'm sick of being a tissue you use and throw away
I try to heal but you just come back again
I need only someone to be there to hold
when I'm down and my heart's starting to turn cold
someone tell me how I am good?
when so much pain I cause more then any good girl should
I break hearts left and right without even trying
I search and I search and I don't know what for
I beg and I beg and no one is willing to give more
I want someone to understand my pain
and the fact that I just might be insane
I want to know what should I do
when you come around saying I love you
I love you's break open old wounds
and you don't know what you've done
by pledging your love to a beast
means your offering your heart to be part of a feast
I am curious how do you propose that you're love
can fix this mess that seems unfixable
I want to trust you, I really do
but how can I? when all your processors have been so untrue