Love And Loss

I love you.
Truly i do.
But when you smile i get sad.
You say its OK but deep down its not.
You ask why do i cry.
I should be happy to see you i know.
But you don't know you are dead.
You died that night in a blinding flash of light.
The cars were speeding by not seeing you there.
No one cared.
I was with you that night.
You pushed me away from the cars when I tripped.
If i wasn't there you'd be alive!
I know it that's why i died.
I took that knife first then thought no.
Not like this.
So i jumped off the same bridge you were killed on.
They haven't found me yet so i smile when you smile.
Truly i do.
I love you.