in memory of our love

the room gets cold, the pulse beside me has ceased.
i lay in my bed, tormented by these nightmarish dreams.
all is coming back, i can see her face, and hear her screams.
god if you're listening, take this guilt from me.

deliver me from this evil, that which i cannot escape.
the leash tighter on my neck, lacerated to the bone.
strangled by my demons, and trapped by my hate.
this prayer has faded to the wind, and there is no hope

behind the self-medication, is the shadow of my memories.
you may have stitched the open wound, but my heart still bleeds.
nothing is left, but this blood thirsty desire.
to end it all, and go into the fire.

each breath i force is just a corrosive chemical.
that tears me open from the inside.
your pleading was a pathetic spectacle.
remember you're alone because of your lies.

i started a war, only to lose a friend.
i built you a pedastool, and you burned it in the tnd.
i fell for you love(lie) now im back up in hate.
if you ever crawl back, it will be too late.

i built our temple, now my tomb.
and your eternal structurish vows crumble to ahses.
i threw them to the wind to poison the earth.
goodbye......