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Rock Bottom Fantasy II
Rock Bottom Fantasy II
I lay and I sigh whilst flicking through old photographs
of you,
what did we do?
How would it feel having you lie next to me?
Though we lie
and we change
and everything can erase
that
feeling
that I felt
when I was only seventeen.
"Some serious fucking issues..."
At a
train
in the rain
I watch you slip away
with a kiss
on the
cheek
you're leaving me again.
We are not
ones in love
though a sister
I haven't got
I have a personality
split in two.
It was more than you could
cope
with.
So I sit
and I wait
and the cars in the lot
rearrange.
I hear
you're coming home,
my ex-fiance,
my best
friend.
I think
about you,
about the kid we almost put through
my
sickness,
my 'serious issues',
how could we get through this?
I'm
tired,
I'm so tired.
The bed is still made up on your side
and it
moves -
I feel it move,
I haven't moved for days.
So I smile,
I
let
the memories wash over me.
It's not you,
it's my mum,
just come
to check and see
my sanity.
My insanity.
She came to move two more
empty bottles of wine
from my side,
from where I cried
when our baby
fell out of me.
Cold and wet,
my regret,
and you left on the next days
train
it's not the same,
my bereft shame
the guilty party is not only
me.
In my wedding dress,
I lay,
both parts of me love you through
it.
We're not the same,
in my shame,
one half wants to die and another
wants to see you grieve.
We conceived, you and I,
an idea that died in
me
and you just left.
"No
regrets."
The broken couple, two parts of me.
How could you say
that to me?
"You have some serious
fucking issues..."
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