Ashes of Time

Temperamental tears and devotional swears
Simple minded thoughts that I just didn’t care
Justified rights causing disruption in faith
Complication over mindset withdrawing to my fears
Calmed over nerves and a resolution to prayer
I was selfish, screaming to myself that it’s just not fair
So with frenzied piercing cries and cold founded tears now wiped away
I'm still left wondering why; so to the heavens I shout in need of a way out
Please Lord I admit that I've lost my way and now I pray
with eyes full of shameful tears I still ask thee why has my love fallen away
Disregard, turning my back to every word you said; I know I made my bed
I just could not find the words to admit the price that you've paid,
is your love lost is this the punishment for my life's crimes being chained to my old ways
Even though I was lost You knew my feigned over life would eventually change
I'm holding on to hope, down on my knees once again
with the sands of time slipping through my hands, hours seem like days
As I scream out to you through clenched fists holding on to the ashes of my time
and on bended knee I plead; help me, I've lost my way, what else can I say
Is all hope lost... did I seal my fate and I realize too late
that my forever love had fallen away
Has your love turned to ash forever lost to me like sands through the hourglass
Then you came to me with hands out stretched... I heard your whisper in the wind
And now with no more doubts or fears I will forever walk with thee