Help

I felt that cold chill run down my back..
Closing my eyes praying to God..
That this form in all black just skips me..
Maybe if I ignore it,It'll pass lil old me
Those hands i once felt now so warm and rugged
Tears in my eyes,but I cant run from it.
Im stuck,Lord help me WAKEUP!!!
I need to feel the presence of you.
Just tell me what I should do..
I scream!!
The pressure is to much
A voice so loud
Now barely able to make sound
Im loosing this battle and yet I dont know how..
Help me...Balled up fetal position begging for LIFE..
I clinch my life and Hold on to my soul..
I yell you wont take me today..I refuse to let go..
But Lord I need you
Im crying out...HELP ME
Am I not your CHILD...
I know I strayed away,but please don't tune me out..
Unless its my time to go
and my time here has grown Old
And your hands are now weak from holding on to me.
Then lord i will bow out gracefully
But not until You know
These eyes only see you
This smile brightens for you.
This Heart beats in awe of you
This body My temple is your vessel
Do what you must..
But know it is you God my heart TRUSTS.
AMEN....AMEN..