an ode to us

Your heart is perfect, is it not?
Not a stitch, not a scar
Flawless, pristine, scintillating
Ice, and I touch

You are cold
You smile and twirl
Laugh and sing
Are you of the Elven?
Your charm enraptures all

I fell and you didn't notice
Or didn't care; I fell so hard
Your words of honey-coated acid
Drip down my own lips
A poison I cannot resist

I believed in a fabrication
I saw magic all around you
This hatred within threatens to consume me but I
Won't let it
Can't

You've never been mine yet I am yours
The lie has melded
With my skin
I want to scream but
I am safe

Safe in this house,
Of broken dead things,
I'm so safe
I want it to end,
But what am I without you?

What am I
Without your parodies?
I am alone but for you
You're all I have,
You with your flawless skin piercing eyes soft lips and
Casual
Cutting
Words

I hate you
You're consuming me, leaving me a shell
I want to claw at your eyes kick where it hurts yell and cry

You'd only laugh
And leave

So I don't
My silence
Is my loudest
Scream

I think I'll soon be gone
I feel it leaving
My heart shrivelling,
My blood, to atramentum
My once light to dark

So now, before it's all gone,
I remember the sun
I smile as I close my eyes
Against the shadows
That soak into my pores