A day in the life of the neglected little sister

It was an extremely cold day today. The wind had a chilly bite to it as I felt the coldness pierce me the warmth of my parka. In this cold, I was still required to walk to school! I arrived just in time for the first bell. As I arrived everybody was clearing off the playground and going to their classes. At least I made it on time today and assured of staying out of trouble! The fact that I am now in the fourth grade now has some bitter sweetness to it. The sweetness comes in because I am breezing through the curriculum and bitter because no matter how good my grades are, they’ll never be as good as my older sister’s, Ashley. Ashley is brilliant at everything! She is even the perfect looking girl that everybody likes just by looking at her. My older sister, Ashley is a sophomore in high school currently. She is excelling in all her endeavors! I on the other hand am suffering under her shadow… everything I do isn’t good enough for anybody because Ashley can do it better.
The school day dragged on forever and it got way more overcast as the grey clouds came out to play. Meaning a storm for me to walk home in – oh joy!                                                                                                                              I finally reached home in the intense storm and I’m really surprised that my mother would let me walk home alone in such weather conditions.                                                                                                                                            Only as I noticed that my mother wasn’t home, I had a sneaky suspicion that something was very wrong. She was usually home at this time. I walked up to Ashley’s room because she was supposed to help me with some mathematics concept. The house was extremely quiet. I knocked on Ashley’s door but she didn’t respond. I thought that she was maybe blasting her music on her iPod and couldn’t hear me. So I just let myself in… nothing could prepare me for what I saw…
Frightened, I jumped when I heard the phone ring. It was my mother. What was she doing calling me at home when she’s supposed to be here?!   She told me to wait for her by the door and she’ll pick me up in a few minutes.
We arrived at the hospital and I was completely confused! I eventually put the pieces together… we were here because Ashley did something horrible to herself! With all the stress and shock I felt, I passed out.
I regained consciousness a few minutes later in the same room as my sister. She was hooked on many machines and her arm was really full of blood, almost like she had damaged one of her main arteries. I can’t believe that Ashley tried to take her life! She has everything! She’s the most popular and prettiest girl in her school and she’s the smartest student in her year. She’s perfect and her life is perfect! I don’t understand why she would do this to herself, to me.
As I was able to find my balance, I walked over to her bed to look through her file. The only things I picked up from that file was that my sister drank a bottle of anti-freeze and took an overdose of some tablets and then made the damage worse with a cut on her arm. I was then startled as the nurse came out from behind me. The nurse told me that Ashley is hooked up to a machine that is keeping her alive as her organs were failing one by one… I realized that I wouldn’t see my hero sister alive again…

I had quite a few things running through my mind when I realized what situation my older sister was in. I was asking questions like why she would go through with this and hurt us? Why was she being so selfish?! I was extremely angry at Ashley for what she did yet I am still trying to figure out why she would do this…  
It is almost comforting for me to be seeing my perfect sister in such a vulnerable state. To see her in such horrible circumstances reminds me that she is also human and can also die. She is not that super human that people make her out to be but a feeble human just like me. She is nothing special and not in any way better than I am at anything. I am just as valuable as she is! I think it is time for everybody that underestimated me to learn a valuable lesson about appreciation…
I stare at the switch of my sister’s machine, wondering what my mother would do if she sees that the machine was switched off.  I then find myself thinking the unthinkable…   I was edging closer to the switch off the machine. I accidentally bumped the glass jug off the bedside table and sent shards of broken glass all over the room with water soaking my feet. I reached for the switch and ended who once was my hero and suddenly became my rival. I Felt absolute regret for taking my sister’s life. How will I ever face my parents for taking their eldest daughter’s life? With my sister I decided today was my end too. I grabbed a piece of glass and ended it all…