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Crim VS Brenda
Some of you here know me only as Crim
a tough lady off the streets
paid some hard prices there
loving the smell of tar heroin
cooking in the morning
making me gag in anticipation
of my next fix
then hitting the ground running
time ticking the dragon breathing down my neck
climbing into strange men's cars
off to the motel it didn't matter
cos Crim is an evil bitch who loves it rough
so when they pulled my hair
or fucked me hard in the ass
I got off with the most sinister of men
sucking their cocks
squirting all over my juicy breasts
awaiting that sweet cum on my tits
cos that meant my job was done
and I could get down to my real pleasure
shooting dope
cooking it, loading the rig
waiting for it to register
and slam, release riding the elevator all the way down
into oblivion's arms
then off to next man
dope is a demon with a gaping maw
always demanding to be fed
a beast, a task master
fuck, shoot dope, wash and repeat
then came the Methadone days
hazy days that I can barely remember
I came to love that demon too
no longer fucking for cash
I became a zombie lost in the fog
it made me crazy in the end
all the damage i'd done
strapped to a table
poison dripping into my veins
these were the lonely days
Crim had deserted me
I wasn't tough anymore
screaming obscenities to hell
Crim's parting words were come
get this bitch before I rip her in two
as I lay there struggling with my restraints
pissing on myself because the docs didn't give a shit
too afraid of me to let me up I guess
Brenda is the tender side of me
who still takes shelter in Crim's shade
like a butterfly struggling with it's cocoon
I am trying to emerge
but I still like to drink
love sex rough and dirty
i'm trying to find myself really
on this trip this journey
it's led me many places
made me who I am
a tough lady off the streets
paid some hard prices there
loving the smell of tar heroin
cooking in the morning
making me gag in anticipation
of my next fix
then hitting the ground running
time ticking the dragon breathing down my neck
climbing into strange men's cars
off to the motel it didn't matter
cos Crim is an evil bitch who loves it rough
so when they pulled my hair
or fucked me hard in the ass
I got off with the most sinister of men
sucking their cocks
squirting all over my juicy breasts
awaiting that sweet cum on my tits
cos that meant my job was done
and I could get down to my real pleasure
shooting dope
cooking it, loading the rig
waiting for it to register
and slam, release riding the elevator all the way down
into oblivion's arms
then off to next man
dope is a demon with a gaping maw
always demanding to be fed
a beast, a task master
fuck, shoot dope, wash and repeat
then came the Methadone days
hazy days that I can barely remember
I came to love that demon too
no longer fucking for cash
I became a zombie lost in the fog
it made me crazy in the end
all the damage i'd done
strapped to a table
poison dripping into my veins
these were the lonely days
Crim had deserted me
I wasn't tough anymore
screaming obscenities to hell
Crim's parting words were come
get this bitch before I rip her in two
as I lay there struggling with my restraints
pissing on myself because the docs didn't give a shit
too afraid of me to let me up I guess
Brenda is the tender side of me
who still takes shelter in Crim's shade
like a butterfly struggling with it's cocoon
I am trying to emerge
but I still like to drink
love sex rough and dirty
i'm trying to find myself really
on this trip this journey
it's led me many places
made me who I am
Published 2nd Oct 2013
| Edited 4th Oct 2013
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Anonymous
2nd Oct 2013 9:36pm
This is poetry as therapy
You are very brave to own up to this in public
Maybe this will help you heal
You must remember who you are now:
a talented poet and a good human being.
Joyce Meyer, the tele-evangelist has a good
saying: "You are NOT your history"
Go forward, do not look back
Good work
Peace
Kitty
You are very brave to own up to this in public
Maybe this will help you heal
You must remember who you are now:
a talented poet and a good human being.
Joyce Meyer, the tele-evangelist has a good
saying: "You are NOT your history"
Go forward, do not look back
Good work
Peace
Kitty
2nd Oct 2013 11:12pm
2nd Oct 2013 9:44pm
Very strong and courageous write.
I applaud you for the emotional honesty that shines thru in this gritty poem...
I applaud you for the emotional honesty that shines thru in this gritty poem...
2nd Oct 2013 11:13pm
Anonymous
2nd Oct 2013 9:48pm
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2nd Oct 2013 11:15pm
2nd Oct 2013 9:52pm
Bang! No holds barred. Almost an exorcism. It's tantalising, harrowing and somehow optimistic in its coming. All of that. Well bloody done.
2nd Oct 2013 11:16pm
thank you Jamie you made me smile wide.. i'm trying to grow as a writer and person stripping it down to the facts as I've been advised.. peace Brenda
3rd Oct 2013 4:53am
3rd Oct 2013 8:42pm
while Hemi didn't advise me on this poem.. he did look this one over
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/100515-to-be-a-junkie/
and advised me to make my life more real with details.. good eye Gemini
http://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/100515-to-be-a-junkie/
and advised me to make my life more real with details.. good eye Gemini
Anonymous
2nd Oct 2013 10:48pm
Honesty and emotion..this piece is solid gold. In writing it, you've cracked that cocoon ...
2nd Oct 2013 11:19pm
Thank you Petit this was tough to write but it just poured out of me.. thank you for the add to your list that touched my heart.. peace Brenda
Anonymous
3rd Oct 2013 00:18am
I'm sure this was such a liberating experience to pen down and let it go of the past demons, all these were part of you, but they were fragmented and needed to pull together to find the center of your core being.
It looks like you have embraced it, and that's the light at the end of the tunnel.
Im so touched by this piece that im taking it to my list.
It looks like you have embraced it, and that's the light at the end of the tunnel.
Im so touched by this piece that im taking it to my list.
3rd Oct 2013 00:26am
Thank you beautiful lady for the add to your list.. sigh yes I must embrace my past and my present and find some yin to my yang.. thank you again.. peace Brenda
3rd Oct 2013 1:00am
Sinful Criminal aka Brenda, this was amazing! You let us in to a side of you that I knew existed but never read about it in explicit detail such as:
"so when they pulled my hair
or fucked me hard in the ass
I got off with the most sinister of men
sucking their cocks
squirting all over my juicy breasts
awaiting that sweet cum on my tits"
Fucking hot, crim!
Gemini
"so when they pulled my hair
or fucked me hard in the ass
I got off with the most sinister of men
sucking their cocks
squirting all over my juicy breasts
awaiting that sweet cum on my tits"
Fucking hot, crim!
Gemini
3rd Oct 2013 1:12am
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3rd Oct 2013 8:44pm
3rd Oct 2013 2:46am
Always the Multi-layer-Dear Crim, Lovely Brenda...strength in tenderness as well You know...self preservation and self understanding seems to be a life long endeavor eh?
Hats off to You for digging In!!!
You ARE a glowing Soul-Gabe
Hats off to You for digging In!!!
You ARE a glowing Soul-Gabe
3rd Oct 2013 8:46pm
Thank Gabe you're right it is life long endeavor thank you for the kindness you shown my.. peace Brenda
3rd Oct 2013 6:28am
you are such a beautiful soul Brenda and so strong to purge these thoughts and feelings publicly.
This was a raw and powerful write.
This was a raw and powerful write.
3rd Oct 2013 8:47pm
thank you Mia for such a loving comment.. You are a beautiful soul as well who has shared her heart with us I thank you.. peace Brenda
3rd Oct 2013 8:56am
Brenda you are emerging as a very talented poet, BRAVO my friend I am so proud of you. Michael
3rd Oct 2013 8:48pm
It took everything in me not to cry from this piece... I really don't have any sufficient comments for this but I will say I love you babe...
3rd Oct 2013 8:50pm
I love you too Kourtniss you are in my heart your poems always touch my soul.. much love Brenda
4th Oct 2013 5:01pm
I keep coming back to this poem.....inside/outside; subsidence and retroflection; reverse engineering and re-inventing oneself.....hmmmmmmmm.
4th Oct 2013 7:40pm
thank you RT for the insightful comment reinventing myself is the plan.. :) glad this one drew you in.. peace Crim
9th Oct 2013 3:22pm
A Brenda shot might eventually seal the deal..molting is a disclosure....
9th Oct 2013 4:40pm
I'm afraid there is no molten disclosure there just a married lady who likes to paint.. thank you for the interest though RT.. peace Crim
Oh goodness how this made me want to cry for some strange reason. Maybe it was the magnitude of your time wandering in the wilderness, or the impact of recognizing your darkness and inking it so potently. Maybe it was the overall toxicity of Crim's power over Brenda. Whatever the case, you young lady make my heart tremble with joy, from fighting your way out of a self-destructive life style, staring it in the face and having the courage to take it one day at a time. Xoxo
Hugs&Love~
Hugs&Love~
4th Oct 2013 10:19pm
Dear Rain thank you for the hugs and love yes Crim does have an over powering affect on me at times.. peace Brenda
Been there on that dry heave highway of blurred echoing dreams that never came true, draggin my ass up and down too - but its our past that makes our present and you ROCK IT HARD Crim,,,well said, I admire your courage and your rock hard beauty!
Peaceeeeee
Peaceeeeee
29th Oct 2013 3:12am
Thank you Tami for getting this poem and for such a beautiful comment you touched my heart.. wishing you peace Crim :)
29th Oct 2013 4:38am
29th Oct 2013 4:40am
i really really love your work , the boldness and daring ways of your literature...i wish you the best
What a beautiful way to put it Cesar you have a way with words.. thank you Cesar for such a lovely comment.. peace Brenda
16th Nov 2013 5:50am
Wow... Almost too hard to read the reality of this
deep, dark, raw ink... Never been a fan of hardcore drugs, but mostly becuz I know once you let them inside you
They GOT you... Still it is amazing to see you
are trying to keep that in ur past, as for the drinking
that can be a horrible ride too if one can't control it...
Exceptional n superbly brave ink my friend :)
Well
deep, dark, raw ink... Never been a fan of hardcore drugs, but mostly becuz I know once you let them inside you
They GOT you... Still it is amazing to see you
are trying to keep that in ur past, as for the drinking
that can be a horrible ride too if one can't control it...
Exceptional n superbly brave ink my friend :)
Well
16th Nov 2013 1:16pm
yes it was a dark path indeed to follow.. I've left that life style far behind me now.. thank you for such a beautiful comment :) peace Crim
4th Dec 2014 9:05pm
This was beautifully written.. such raw energy, painted with dark emotion.. and it bleeds the truth, that made you who you are.. brave write.. thanks for sharing.. into my list it goes.. much respect..
Dave
Dave
6th Dec 2014 5:31pm
yes this was part of my life and makes me who I am today thank you for showing this write love with respect Crim
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28th Sep 2017 2:41pm
thank you beautiful Dani this is a really old poem of mine but one I think I needed to read today.. I deeply appreciate your support.. love Brenda
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