Leaving One Hell For Another

Reminiscent of a misguided illusion                          
I still claw my way up the walls of the abyss                        
The abyss that I alone carved                        
Breathing has become so labored                        
But all I once knew smolders beneath me: burning away so furiously                        
                         
I can’t curb my demons                          
I feel a shadow stir within the hollows of my heart                        
And writhe amid the shallows of my mind                        
It will leave me blind to anything but its face                              
Jesus, this suffering is too much to bear                    
                         
Memories from the maw of hell lives within my mind                        
Lingers in my veins                      
I wait for the light to dissipate, for reality to slip away once again                        
If only I could bleed out all the things I’ve felt                        
’Cause they never leave                        
                         
I am a world that sows seeds of anger, hatred and discontent                        
And reap a crop of violence, discord and evil intent                      
My starving soul cries out to be fed              
To be comforted              
To feel alive              
To feel anything other than this            
           
If there is a way out, it feels lost to me right now            
’Cus no matter how far I come, it only feels like I’m      
Leaving one hell for another      
I’m leaving one hell for another      
     
But I won’t stop moving      
I won’t admit defeat   
Because in my heart I can feel    
Something or someone is waiting for me  
       
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Hi, this is my first poem here. Hope you enjoy it and please tell me what you think of it. I am from Sweden so Im not that good in English.. but I try my best!                          
Love - Robin