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what i deserve

i deserve to be struck
i deserve to be ran over by a truck
i deserve a painful all
for someone to laugh at my painful fall
i deserve it, yes indeed i do
for all the shit i put people through
i am emotional
so irrational
i wake up and wish i were dead
because i hate wanting to torture and kill her
i deserve to suffer
i want to carve out her eyes
to cut so slowly out the instrument she uses to spin her lies
i deserve to die
before i make her loved ones cry
my god says to love everyone
but i am forced to admit i just want her gone
i want to punch her, stab her, jab her and torture her but leave her alive
for into the darkness i refuse to let her dive
i hate her, i hate me
i hate how much i deserve pain and misery
everyone tells me i deserve love
but how can i deserve such a sweet thing when all i want is her to shove
i hate every stupid thing she says and do
so tell me what is it that i am to do?
Written by BlueBeastGirl (Beasty)
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